I know, I been missing for almost a week from the blog. Recently, with the depressing feeling I feel at work, just didnt feel like blogging much. No point in making every1 feeling down too by reading what I have to say about things that I do not think I have control over. Actually, last Friday morning, I was determined to have a chat with him to clear all this things that is hovering over my head. Based on advise I got from my colleagues, this seems to be the only way to go if I want to continue working productively.
Had actually decided that after lunch, I will invite him for the chat. But then, I somehow chickened out. I realised that I am not the most confrontational person that I used to be. He has changed me and caused my self-confidence to drop to the bottom of the ocean. So, before I can actually confront him, I need to gather my inner strength and talk to myself first. I need to bolster my self-confidence and self-worth that has been destroyed by him, intentionally or unintentionally by him. For now, I can only visualise the day that I hand in my special letter...
I guess I pretty much decided that the alternative would be to find alternative. When 2nd and 3rd chances were given to change and things revert back to the same again, then I think it is pretty much time to give up and look for greener pasture. Hopefully, the pasture is really greener on the other side of the fence but I will take this as a learning experience. Something to add to my list of portfolio and resume. Something that I hope I can take to my next level of opportunity.
Damn! I seriously pray the day will come soon!