My Mom, My Dad, Being A Mom...

Although I love my mom very much but sometimes, she really gets on my nerve! Even this far away from my parents, she still managed to irritate me early in the morning. Don't get me wrong. I miss them very much and is extremely homesick whenever I think of them. But, sometimes with my mom, I think our role is reversed! Instead of she being the one to guide and the place for me to turn to when I am in need, I will usually just keep everything to myself or turn to my close friends for advice. I think it is because I know how much my parents will worry if I do tell them my troubles or worries.

My mom, on the other hand, will have no qualm at all to load me with all her worries and burden. From the big thing such as being sick to the smallest thing such as bro not helping her with the housework. Secretly, I think she did this on purpose to make me feel guilty so that I move my butt back to Kch to work. Yah, my mom is naive in that way. I guess she never truly accepted the fact that I am a 30+ lady that will be getting married end of this year! Sincerely speaking, I am not sure how to communicate with her.

In fact, come to think of it, I never have good communication with my parents. Of course I do love them very much and care alot about them. But I just can't talk to them. I don't mean the normal talk-talk but rather a more heart-talk, if you know what I mean. I envy babe's family and relatives because it seems to me that the kids can say anything to their parents and not be worried at all. Open communication, that is the word that I am looking for.

Maybe it is the way my dad brought us up. I still remember when we were young, he will tell us not to interrupt the adults when they are talking (kids nowadays have no problem with interrupting and demanding what they want when their parents are talking which I find rather rude sometimes). Also, I remember we were ever told not to make too much noise when there are guests at home or something like that. I think my bro and I always have a healthy fear for our dad because he can be pretty strict. (Images of being punished for not doing homework - school bags being thrown out the door *gasp* and scolded and punished to look at the wall to contemplate my mistake *sigh*)

I hope that I will be able to have a more open communication with my kids, when I have kids lar. But at the same time, I want to bring my kids up to be responsible adults too. Meaning, I need to give them enough freedom to grow but also guidance to make sure that they turn out to be fantastic independent high achiever with great IQ and EQ! WoW! No babies yet and already the pressure on them..hhmm.....