Friday, March 28, 2008

Dream Dream Go Away, Dun Come Again Anyday!

I have the most horrible and terrifying dream last night. I dreamed that I was at a building, I think a shopping mall or something similar. Or maybe it is not because I think I was there for a function or something like that. Everything was jumbled up and all fuzzy as most dreams are but the most vivid memory I have of the dream was that I was trying to look for my car in this huge carpark but I just couldn't find it. I walked round and round, up and down the entire carpark but I just cant seem to locate my car. Then, I even start pressing my car key so that the car alarm will go off so that I can try to locate the sound it comes from. But no matter how many times I did that and I thought I heard my car alarm going off, it turn out that it is not my car at all. Or I was just not able to locate the source of the car alarm!

On top of that, I also suddenly realised that I left my handbag on one of the table in the function room. By then I was starting to hyperventilate and start to wake up from my dream. I woke up finding myself breathing really fast and in distress! When I look at the time, it is on 5.45am but I just couldn't go back to sleep. Instead, I just toss and turn in my bed analysing my dream over and over again in my head.

I realised that whenever I feel uncertain about my feelings, I will have similar dream, i.e. losing my car, my personal belongings and feeling all alone, helpless, hopeless and without anyone to turn to. And I definitely know what bring on this dream last night. God, you just have to punish me for having those feelings huh? Sigh...

After that dream last night, I am feeling terribly melancholic today. Even the prospect of the new gal that will be here today to replace me does not excite me as much anymore. Or the fact that I have completed my Toasmasters Competent Communicator manual yesterday when Idid the project 10 brings me much joy at all. To tell you the truth, I am very confused, tired and not in good mood at all this morning! So watch out!

4 comments:

Rose said...

Poor gal! Sometimes dream doesnt mean anything! Just an expression of what you feeling right now, dont let it affect your day, dear! :) Think of the bright side, weekend is here! Its pay day and almost end of the month! In less than 2 weeks time, you flying over the big ocean to join ur babe!!! Hope this brighten up your day and mood.

Jen's Place said...

Hi Rose,
Thanks for trying to cheer me up. Yah, weekend is coming and in less than 1 wk plus I will be flying off to KL to start a new life...
Just wish I dont feel so blue on a Friday

RaiNboW said...

Jen, u sure know how to cover up ur feeling well. As I can't spot any difference when i had breakfast with u just now le...

Jen's Place said...

Hi Rainbow,
Yeah, hahaha...looks can be deceiving. That is why I took extra care with my looks this morning:P