I have the most horrible and terrifying dream last night. I dreamed that I was at a building, I think a shopping mall or something similar. Or maybe it is not because I think I was there for a function or something like that. Everything was jumbled up and all fuzzy as most dreams are but the most vivid memory I have of the dream was that I was trying to look for my car in this huge carpark but I just couldn't find it. I walked round and round, up and down the entire carpark but I just cant seem to locate my car. Then, I even start pressing my car key so that the car alarm will go off so that I can try to locate the sound it comes from. But no matter how many times I did that and I thought I heard my car alarm going off, it turn out that it is not my car at all. Or I was just not able to locate the source of the car alarm!
On top of that, I also suddenly realised that I left my handbag on one of the table in the function room. By then I was starting to hyperventilate and start to wake up from my dream. I woke up finding myself breathing really fast and in distress! When I look at the time, it is on 5.45am but I just couldn't go back to sleep. Instead, I just toss and turn in my bed analysing my dream over and over again in my head.
I realised that whenever I feel uncertain about my feelings, I will have similar dream, i.e. losing my car, my personal belongings and feeling all alone, helpless, hopeless and without anyone to turn to. And I definitely know what bring on this dream last night. God, you just have to punish me for having those feelings huh? Sigh...
After that dream last night, I am feeling terribly melancholic today. Even the prospect of the new gal that will be here today to replace me does not excite me as much anymore. Or the fact that I have completed my Toasmasters Competent Communicator manual yesterday when Idid the project 10 brings me much joy at all. To tell you the truth, I am very confused, tired and not in good mood at all this morning! So watch out!