Lord..Give me strength and wisdom..

Feeling super upset & depressed since yesterday after got the shocking news from my brother. I know I, as the elder sister, cannot do much except advice because ultimately, this is his life and he needs to do his own growing up. And if this is a mistake (no matter how big it is), then perhaps it is a mistake that he will have to learn on his own instead of being sheltered by my overprotective parents that spoil him to bits simply because they can now and he is staying at home. I just wish that this news of his does not have to affect my parents. Because I know that my dad will be first be upset, then sad, then worry…. Knowing my dad, he will in the end let my bro make his own decision too because to him, we are all grown ups (although sometimes I feel my bro still act super irresponsible!).


I can only try to shield and prevent unwanted things from happening and cause more pain to my parents in the future. I wish I have the means and ability to move my parents and handicap sister to KL with me, away from all this mess. Maybe the maternal instinct in me is kicking into overdrive.

But you can’t blame me because it is really hard for me to believe that someone will willingly sacrifice so much and family is as generous as this. Not without hidden agenda or intention. My bro might think he is being noble and be responsible, but to me, little did he know, he is being manipulated and some how, some way, I need to stop this manipulation from spreading to my parents…somehow……………….Lord give me the wisdom and power to be wise and do the right thing….

Dream Home...

Since we back from Kuching, I silently tell babe that perhaps we should slowly look around for suitable houses to buy instead of rushing since the bank interest rate has already gone up. Initially, when we start house hunting, the agents were telling us that we better hurry because the rates going to go up 2^nd half of the year. But seems the rates went up earlier than anticipated. So, there is no rush now as long as the landlord does not push us out of the house because he is selling it. If he does and we have not found a house that we want, then I guess we will just rent a smaller place first.

We are still hoping to find something in the area that we stayed in previously. Not sure why but both of us just love the environment and ambience the place radiate I guess. Not so sure how to explain this. It is not as if the place is super grand. In fact, it is an aged housing area or people call it matured housing area. I guess we were just feeling comfortable & safe and this is the most important factor especially with the wee-one coming end of the year. Also, we want a landed property because there is simply no other way for us since we are both dog-lover. Also, I will always remember what my mom told me when she was here with dad and sis previously to visit us when we were staying in an apartment. She said dad told her feel like staying in a prison! HAHA! I guess them being from Kuching and never stayed in a apartment or condo before, the place is abit restrictive with no balcony or porch.

We have actually done our surveying and the price really scares us. For simple single storey terrace or link house it can range from RM400K to RM450K. Double storey can cost almost double of that. There is also town house which ranges from RM500K onwards. The price of the single storey house can purchase TWO of my parents place in Kuching!

There is another area which we are looking at. A few of babe’s friends are actually staying either in the same area or nearby. It is also pretty near to the IOI Mall and Jusco at Equine park. Houses here are double storey terrace or link house and the price ranges from RM280K-300K which is still rather reasonable. But we are still reluctant to commit because the place is rather far away from any highway to make it convenient. Else, we could just put a deposit at anytime for the house we are happy with and start from there. I know some of you might be telling me that being a distant from highway is good but if you have the drive at least 15-20min from your house to the highway that you need to take to get to work, then another 20-30min vs just 5min from home to highway and still have the same 20-30min, which would you choose?

Anyway, we are still looking around for our dream house and will take our time I guess especially since I cant help babe move if we do move before the baby comes along…

I am ALIVE! ^_^

Hi! Now that I have time on my hand, time to start updating this place again..well, at least for the next few weeks till I start at my new place *grin*. For those that know me personally, yes yes yes, I am a grasshopper hopping yet again to a new place. But seriously, if you are in my position, you would be doing the same thing. Never in my 10years+ of working life, just after 2 months in a new work environment, I am throwing in the towel and makes be wonder if it is worth taking this job up simply for better pay and benefits. A friend of mine (SK) was actually telling me that it is my hormones making me feel this way and I should fight it. No offense my friend, I have tried to fight it for last 2 months but after being stabbed repeated at the back by colleagues that you thought are your friends (all in the space of 2 months), I decided I do not have the tolerance to play this advance level of game that is being played here. EVERYTHING and I do mean everything is about position & office politics here!

And to make matter worse (and confirmed my decision), people are actually spreading rumors (again, from someone that I assumed is a friend) that I am resigning because I am asked to by my manager. Seriously, I do not know what such rumor will benefit the person but I guess maybe the person felt all powerful and mighty? If someone can shed light on this, please, feel free to enlighten me.

So, today, I will be calling my boss @ 5pm to re-confirm that I have not changed my mind about the resignation and to ask him to let me know how he wants me to proceed with the passdown. We spent about 45minutes last Friday to discuss my resignation. Most time was him trying to convince me the prospect of working in the company, i.e. financial and career path. No doubt, if the economy continues to boom, the financial return will be good too. As for career path, I seriously do not see beyond where I am now. So, yes, I admit very frankly (admitted to the interviewer as well) that I made a mistake by tendering from my previous company which offers me immediate promotion upon receiving my resignation and clear career path to top management.

But, looking back, every move I made enrich my knowledge and experience. Except while in this company, I never have any regret leaving my previous companies because each decisions was made with careful deliberation and sound judgments. The lesson I learned? Never resign simply for financial benefits because I believe if money is the motivator, most of the time, the job will not motivate you. Take me for example, by joining this company, my salary actually increase leaps and bounds, the benefits were so much better and job scope (on paper, theoretically) sounds so much simpler. But I overlooked the work culture in the company which is totally different from my tolerance level.

Anyway, last day will be 30 Jun. CANT WAIT! HAHAHA!!

Daydreaming on a Saturday....

Not doing much today. Just rushing around trying to clean this bigggg house that we renting just for babe, me and Ginger. Thinking back, I really dont know what we were thinking other than we love this house and the space! But never thought of the cleaning up and especially clutter that babe like to accumulate. Yar, he still dont put things back to where he got them from! End up, every other day, we will be 'hunting' around the house for 1 thing or another that he misplaced. If there is such a thing as misplace! I mean, if you put it there, how can it be misplaced? Hmmpff... Anyway, the landlord's agent's partner is bringing potential buyer to view the house. I been saying no so many times because I got irritated because: 1. Call and say 5min later will bring someone to view the house. He think we got nothing better to do? 2. Call at 11pm-ish to say next morning want to bring someone to view the house. Idiot, dont they know that late calls are for emergencies only! 3. Say want to come at 10.30am next day. 2 hours later sms say 11am then another 2 hours, at 11.30am. I basically told him, its 11am or I am out by 11.30am. I dont care. It should be at our convenience... Anyway, this basically mean that we are actively finding house of our own too. Everything everywhere is so freaking expensive! But I am keeping my hope high that we are able to find a place that we both like at the price that we can afford. Sooooo, hopefully by 2nd half of this year, will be able to move into our own place lar. A place that we can finally put down our roots after 3 years in KL! Can imagine already. I told babe, I want laminated floor EVERYWHERE! And I want fully equiped kitchen. Oh Ginger get her own lil room too and we might even get her a little friend after that. ARGGHH...day dreaming! HAHA

Eat Wind (Makan Angin)

Nowadays babe and Ginger just luv to go car ride. Sometimes, when I am too lazy or came home too late to go for walks, we will bring Ginger for a car ride and she really seems to enjoy it very much. So much so that sometimes she dont even want to come out of the car after the ride. We either have to coax her or pretend to leave her outside the house before she will willingly get out of the car on her own.

Life is Jackpot...

Wow.. I thought I will never ever be in the mood to do this again. Things has been moving at a crazy speed nowadays. Maybe I am growing old but sure makes me wish that I can find some way to slow down and yet still making the same (or more) mullah monthly. H...A...I....which leads me to dream of winning the jackpot! Crazy gal I know but I can dream right???? Imagining if I do win millions, what would I do? Of course, first thing, QUIT my job immediately! Dont get me wrong, I have nothing against the company, colleagues or boss and so on but I just need a long long long break without stress! Even now, on MC and I have actually been working from home since 7am with 2 hours cat nap in between. Was just too worried to sleep well.. Hubby coming back in while for lunch. Hopefully, can continue my sleep after that. Need to send out the updated report at 7pm later tonight. Hhmm..maybe I can get my gal to send it out. Just items left..should be pretty straightforward...

Headache..real actual Headache AFTER shopping

Just got back from 1U to get some stuffs to bring back to Kch on Friday. After walking less than 3 hours, I am already feeling tired and having a headache. Stamina is just not like what it used to be! Tmrw evening will be going out again. Have some errands to run before going back hometown and also need to send Ginger to the kernel. Poor gal, she is gonna be there for 10 days! Hope she wont be siaw dog when we finally come and get her on 2 Jan.

So, seems my days are all planned out for my Kch trip.

24 Dec - Arrive Kch around 11.30am! What to do first??????????

25 Dec to 27 Dec - Go sri Aman.

27 Dec, PM - Dinner with the gals @ The Junk.

28 Dec-29 Dec - Gonna stay @ parents place and let myself spoiled silly!Knowing dad, he will most probably get the both of us up and go to bak kut teh that his son-in-law likes...sigh..

29 Dec,PM - Our wedding anniversary..Wonder babe got anything planned this year or not :)

30 Dec to 31 Dec - Planning to sleep 2 parents place again and my turn to spoil them :P

31 Dec, PM - Should be going to babe's friend's house for bbq, same as every year. Almost a tradition already.

1 Jan - Go back to KL lor..

Hhmm..feel like not enough time ler...

Ginger Ginger Ginger.....

hhmm..523post. And nothing in almost 2 months. Gosh, I am getting really lousy at this updating my blog stuff ever since I changed to my job (over a year ago). Too much things to be pre-occupied with after work and during the weekend, just too lazy to do much. Let me see, what have I been doing in the last few weeks.

To be frank, nothing much happened that I can blog about. Maybe that is what tamed my blogging addiction? Or maybe because of the new baby Ginger that is taking up alot of my time? But I really didnt mind because let me tell you, all the tiredness and stress from work just dissappeared when you see unconditional love leaping up & down at you as if she has not seen you for months when in fact, only lunch time you came back to feed her and let her out to wee-wee.

But she is the closest to my babe. When babe comes back, it is as if she sees God coming home! HAHA! That is the only way I can described how Ginger acted. Even now, she is sleeping next to babe napping. When babe is at the computer playin game, she will go to the door and sleep there. But the moment babe stopped with the computer and comes to the living room area, she will walk over and plop herself down next to babe. AND part of her body must touch part of babe. Does not matter whether its her paw touching babe's finger or wat.

Just touching would be enough to make her sleep like a baby. I guess she just feel safe with hubby? But but but.. I am the one that feed her ler! AND she bullies me! Yarp, will bite my fingers if I dont give her what she wants but with babe, she will lick him no matter what! GGRR! HAHAHA!~

Ooops...babe just tip-toe away to play his computer. She is still sleeping. Must be extremely exhausted because she has not sleep the whole day! :P

Oh did I also tell you that she is extremely intelligent. For the right reward (FOOD la what else), she can learn sit and shake hand within 2 days. And cant trick her ler. She will know if got any treats or not. If got treats, just soft request for her to sit and shake hand is enough. But if nothing, tell her till pengsan also she pretend not to hear until she decided to pity you and do what you ask.

Now we are trying to teach her lie down & stay. Need to get her new treats first because that is the only thing that works.

Okay la..enough about Ginger. Dont want to bore you all! :P

Chocolate Cake

Chocolate Cake (from Delicious Asian Food) :-


Ingredients
10 oz. Butter
10 oz. Castor Sugar
7 ½ oz. Flour
1 oz. Cocoa Powder
8 Eggs (separate egg yolks from egg whites)
2 ¼ teaspoon Baking Powder


Method

Beat butter and sugar for 8 minutes (or until white).

Add egg yolks one by one and continue beating for another 10 minutes.

Fold in flour sifted with cocoa powder and baking powder (sifted 2 to 3 times).

In a separate bowl, beat egg whites until stiff and add it to the butter mixture.

Pour mixture onto a baking tray (8″ inch, square tin)

Bake in a 300°F (or 150°C) oven for about 1 hour and 10 minutes.

All ALONE

Geez..I really never thought I will ever say this but being home alone SUCKS!! Sigh..

Babe is back in Sri Aman because his Grandpa just left us yesterday.  He left on the 955pm flight last night and my emotion has been on a roller coaster down-ward ever since. No idea why because I used to love the idea of having the house to myself because then I can do anything I want. But instead, I am counting down the days and trying to occupied myself with something so that I wont cry myself silly! I wonder if this is what they call hormones!

Anyway, what I did today? Hmm.. woke up at 7.30am- let Ginger out for her morning business. (She has been very good a holding it till we let her out so far) and then I put her back to her cage at 8am and proceed upstairs to continue sleeping till 11am. Came down, feed Ginger her lunch (Babe, I feed her your cornbif fried rice leftover! :P)

I made my own brunch - cornbif sandwish. Then it was tv and tv and more tv. I think even Ginger is missing him because she keep going to the stairs and the door as if waiting to see babe coming down or home. She even stop eating halfway and rush to the door because she heard motorbike passing. I think she thought it was babe coming back. 

Anyway, finally I cant stand seeing her sulking around the house waiting for babe, so I brought her for car ride. She was much more happier after that but after awhile, she start to sulk and wait at the door again. It was more tv for me after that. And I fed her dinner at around 6.30pm and I went out.

Went to the new Burger King joint that just opened near here and had my dinner with my book. Havent done that for awhile because babe was never much into reading or sitting at cafe to read. So, this is a treat actually for me. I was having a hard time to decide between Starbuck and Burger King actually but in the end it was those beefy burger for me. I am starting to remember to switch my soft drink to either Milo or juice. HEHE!

Anyway, now I am home..thinking if I should go out again to go to the night market 10min from here. I need a new pair of slippers since Ginger destroyed mine yet again. But the idea of walking in humid human infested place just for a lousy slipper...lazy la. Maybe next week when babe is back we can go? But we will be going to Genting next Saturday for one night. Maybe I should just go. It would be good way to make the time fly faster? SHEESH!